i miss him.
i miss my abang zul.

i dreamt of him today.
i dreamt that he was teaching me how to fly.
coz he COULD fly.
and wen i tried, but couldnt, he held my hand and tried to fly me with him..
it was magical...
and then he sent me down and told me to try.
"Think happy thoughts, huda.."
"What makes you happy?"
*thinking ONE happy thought*
and suddenly i can fly!!
it was a complete thrill and out-of-body experience.
and it felt so real.......

so, wad does the dreams mean??

Clouds
Transition. May be dark or light. Moving through confusion.

Family
Kin. Group. Prosperous times ahead.

FLYING
It can mean you are flying or fleeing, from something you find difficult to face. You try to get away from by using distractions.
The positive flying when you are not fleeing from something, often indicates independence and the ability to deal well with your emotions or fears.
Flying suggests the desire to rise above things, to attain greater heights, to break free of limiting viewpoints or cultural norms.
Flying also represents ambition, abstract thought, and rising above your fears.

HAND
Self expression, your grasp - of life, of ideas, of opportunities; your hold on - people, your children; situations. Extension of your power - to give, take, wound, heal, support or do.

HOLD/HOLDING/HELD
This is complex. It might be that you are trying to control something - as when you hold your breath. You might be trying to control how you feel about someone or something - as when you hold on to something or someone in a dream.

maybe he is just trying to show me how to be free...
but he seems soooo peaceful.
i really miss him sey.
*pray*
love you abg zul.

hey, guess what is the happy thought that i thought of??
hehehe..
its so obvious.
only THAT will make me smile.
haiz.



The one that made him fall..
HIS BIKE
but i guess it was fate la.
he was peaceful wen he left.
he said dua kalimah syahadat and passed away.
even though it was a road accident, his body was in one piece.
thank you, ALLAH.



Arwah Zulkarnain up close... he never really liked taking photos... but can you see how innocent those eyes are? haiz.

This pic makes me all gooey inside. his smile makes me smile...
(ANSWER)
i tynk this pic is taken at the haig road house during 2nd day of raya 2004.
The last raye outing together with him..



Pic taken at 2nd day raya 2004 at nyai hasinah's home. .
last family pic together with him... =(
you really dunno wen will u be creating memories that you wished u treasure more huh?


i remember this picture clearly in my mind as if it was yesterday...
i remember i talked to Abg Zul soo much in this house.
we talked about clubbing.. which he told me never to step into..
we talked about his love life.
we talked about my love life.
advice on life...
it was the first day of raya in 2004 located at cik wan's home at bkt pjg.
my last deep conversation with him.

1st day of raye at nyai home in 2004...
he's smiling?? he rarely smiles on camera.
i remember we always hang out at cik mail's room during 1st raye..
and he always sleeps! hehe~


our last trip together with him.
he was soo moody.
i remember everyone trying to console him...
coz he was to be going NS soon.
we went to... erm.. kota tinggi!
yes.. we went there.
he rarely talked thou.
only spoke wen spoken to.
i remember he sat beside me in the van.
memories. memories.

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but whatever happened, has happened.
is it time to move on yet?
im still not sure.
but what i do noe is he has never left my heart.