Whispers in my head

i din get much sleep yesterday night.

thinking.

wondering.

pondering.

regretting.

needless to say, it was a very very loooong nyte.

I'm full of regret
For all things that I've done and said
And I don't know if it'll ever be ok to show
My face 'round here
Sometimes I wonder if I disappear

Flashbacks of the recent past engulfed my mind.

"Was that really me?"

You are just innocent
A helpless victim of a spider's web
And I'm an insect
Goin after anything that I can get

After much debate with my heart and mind, i came to a conclusion.

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say

but goodbye.