Exam Blues

have you ever get the feeling of anxiety when somebody just mention the word?

THAT word.

Did you ever break into sweat just by casually mentioning the word?

THAT word.

Have you ever felt that its DO or DIE when in terms with the word?

THAT WORD.

what is that word, you ask?

EXAMS.

NOW

i have this uneasy feeling in my heart.

and is beginnning to assume the worst.

i will fail.

i will take sup paper and will fail again!

i will need to retake the module again and i will fail again!

and i will be removed from school just 2 semesters away from my graduation.

and i will have no job and be forced to beg on the streets.

i will have no more comfy clothes that i usually buy in Zara, Topshop, Mango, Hula N co., Esprit...

i will have no more good-looking bags and acessories..

i will have no more deelish food and will be pressed to eat scraps of leftovers from dustbins.

i will wear ragged clothes and people will point, laugh and spit at the lazy me who failed as a student, a daughter and the citizen of the world!!!

:( i will die lonely and not be loved by anybody.

OMG. I DONT WANNA BE THAT!

I NEED TO STUDY!!!

p.s.: my mum quit her job.