Waiting? er.....

do you want to know which word i dread the most in my entire life?

WAITING.

i dread that word.

and i dread.. waiting.

i can never understand how anybody can wait for anyone.

i do not just mean waiting for someone because they are late.

(even THAT kind of waiting makes me cringe)

i mean waiting for somebody because you think they might be the one.

waiting for somebody just because your heart and your gut thinks that waiting is the way to go.

waiting for somebody because you feel or think that things will turn out right in the end.

the concept of waiting for somebody until the end of time makes me ponder.

Can anybody really do that?

logically,

it will be the stupidest thing anybody will ever do.

why?

definition of wait is :

• to look forward to the probable occurrence of
• To remain or rest in expectation
• To remain temporarily neglected

what if what you are waiting for never came?
what if all the waiting comes in vain?
Are you going to throw your life away just to wait for something that may not even happen?
You might think that things will go on as normal while you wait.
but will it be normal? because you are in fact holding something back.
how can you move on when you are holding something back?

Will waiting be enough to get you by if it never came?

But i feel what makes people wait to the slightest chance of thing will infact turn out the way we want them to be.
that's called faith ryte?
you got to have faith.

do i have faith?hmmmm

haha.

i have no idea what im bullshiting today but yea.

so many questions... but no possible answers.