i miss you guys!!!!
cant wait for our day together again...............
at 10.30 am, 28/12/2005 ryte???
hehehehhehe!
i cant wait to skip my stoooooooooopid attchment for you guys...
there's sooo much i wanna tel u guys!
*hugs*
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im at my stopover 2 now.
stopover C.
im now at ARDC...
im in group 4. the unlucky one who gets to do client projects.
my group is doing a project on CISCO.
i noe.
i couldnt believe it either.
sigh.... but what to do.....
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it cum to my attention that im not who i used to be.
i used to be this innocent, naive little girl who think that the world is perfect.
i used to be this hyper active girl who keens and eagers to learn about how to live life.
i used to be this sinless kid who used to see the world in her rose petals eyes.
BUT im different now.
im rebellious and i feel there is a lot of angst inside me.
i couldnt remember the tyme when i was truly happy.
the happy times seems to be so far away now.
what have i become?
one guy after another.
i hurt them.
the main reason is that i wanna hurt them, before i get myself hurt by them.
but in the end, i gain nothing from what i had done.
i just lost ppl's trust, love, affections and companion.
what am i doing to myself??
i am slowly but surely dying a slow death.
i need to do somthing to myself.
i need to do somthing good.
hmm.. i haven done that for such a long tyme.
i need to turn over a new leaf.
or at least be the same person as i used to be.
im not doing it for others.
i dun give a fuck on what they think.
im doing it for myself.

i just need some support along the way.
some ppl who can stop me frm what i have become.
before it will be the end of me.
i dun wanna lose myself.
coz i tynk.. tats all i have left now.

GUYS, they are all the same.
they will always, in the end, hurt you.
no matter how nice u are to them, how perfect you are for them, nothing for them will be good enuf.
that why my dad left my mum.
tats why danial did what he did.
tats why khalif did what he did
tats why my step dad did what he did.
they are GUYS.
i thought syahid was different.
i thought he is this guy who can rescue me frm my life n swept om of my feet.
but i was wrg.
i was wrg abt ALL the guys i met n knew.
i was soo wrg.