Yesterday is probably my worst day of 2006.
feelings of regret and extreme sadness...
not for others but for myself.
i learnt alot abt me yest.
from somebody i hardly even noe.
i learnt that im selfish.
i learnt that i take alot of things for granted.
i learnt that im a manupulative bitch in disguise.
i learnt that sometimes, people are really sincere in getting to know me.
i learnt that i cant hide in NURUL'S world forever, thinking tat evrything is perfect and stop wanting to believe tat we live in a cruel unfair world.
i learnt that underneath the concrete wall tat i built ard me, someday it wil crack.
and it did yesterday..
i showed my vulnerability...
"You dont know what you've got untill its gone."
u will never know how much this quote applies to me now.
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but on a lighter note...

HapPy 21st Birthday to my dearest best guy friend in the world, ariff...
A life without you wont be the same.
A life without you everything will change.
we've shared everything together..
You've always been ther for me.
I've always been ther for you.
best friends have a love that can't be explained..



When life isnt worth it
When the tears roll down your cheek
Just close your eyes and listen
And from a distance... you hear me speak
Though my words at times seem pointless,
When no answers I seem to impart
Dont listen the way you have in the past
But listen with your heart.

For the important things in life
Are invisible to your eyes;
You will hear them in your heart
For your heart will tell no lies.
So, though I may be far away,
Too far for you to reach,
Remember iam there forever
For ive told you in my speech.

Yet, distance never mattered
For distance will only depend
On the depth of the love I have...
And I love you dearly, my friend. :)
So when clouds are at their darkest
And no lining do you see
You have a friend, so close,
And that friend - my friend - is me.
*mOoOoOoOoahks

im here for you whenever you need me, ariff.
happy birthday again.

psssssssssst. i cant wait to see him on saturday. :))