im absolutely horrified abt what is happening now.
im absolutely devasted abt what has happened.
but ther's more to cum... so im just holding my breath.
please just leave us alone.
we dun deserve tis.
my poor juniors...
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sat, 25/2/06
i was late!!
erm... half an hour late.. hehe.. maybe more than that..
apologies to sharul...
=))
*hugs*
went to marina for danceworks.. reach ther at < 10am.
ate LJS...
do make up for my lurvly dancers and actors.
**tank u MCH juniors for cuming...
it was good. they did great...
but they din win..
that day, was too much of a drama..
too much for me to handle la.
so, i block it out of my mind.
ended ard... 5?
ya. den talk2 to my fellow SA beside the sea..

khaliff is gona be a sergeant in TEKONG.
haha.
out of all the places in the world.. he needs to be ther.
poor u!
hehehehehehe....
too bad la..
den cant c u tat often again..
tats just too bad...

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dear diary,
i had a terrible dream yest.
i dreamt tat a horrible man frm my past was trying to take me away.
he was chasing me.
and i keep running and running.
n wen i wanted to fly..., i cant.
so i hid like a coward in a narrow alley, behind sum boxes..
i was trying to control myself from crying.
but then he FOUND ME~
he caught me frm behind.
and squeeze me sooo tight.
i was in a state of shock and numbness.
and i remembered thinking to myself.
" this is the end for me.."
i wanted soo much to wake up.
but i couldnt.
i tried to pulled away.
but he slammed me to the ground
and he pinned me.
he sat on me and began to................................
i couldnt escape from him any longer.
and i gave in. (i cld nvr forgive myself)
erm.... the dream was so graphic.
i dare not want to relive it again.
but, u got the gist.
after he was done, he left me ther.
it was raining.
n my clothes had been torn and unwearble.(i was stark naked btw)
so i just sat ther.
n wait for sumbody to rescue me.
but nobody did.
wen i woke up frm my sleep, my pillow was wet frm tears.
and i dare not sleep again.
please.
dun let me sleep again......
i cant believe he's haunting me even in my dreams.
*cries*